daily doll: custom

Made this one! :)

daily doll: the shelf of doooom!

Ah, excess.
And Haru is wearing a corset.

daily doll: beautiful disaster

Who else but Haru. He's just...something else.

the month without sleep beings

This: http://www.cnn.com/2010/HEALTH/03/28/fatty.foods.brain/
Well that explains everything.

This:
http://www.huffingtonpost.com/2010/03/27/nick-levasseur-apology-an_n_516058.html
Stay classy, legislators. Stay classy.

Also, the main dragon in this movie has the exact same eyes and mannerisms as my cat. Lindsey has seen the film and confirms.



I have 30 days until Generals begin. Which would be fine if I didn't have four classes to complete.

I honestly have no idea what I am going to do.

daily doll: more girlfriends

Milagros and Vera~ Vera is the newest and probably the last for some time.

This is Miranda. I got her as a birthday gift from Haji. :D She's Mir, probably my second favorite 2009 doll (behind Clarity). She looks a little bit like Anastasie but they're also very different:


I've made her half demon just to mix things up. XD

Jenna Celeste has a new hairdo and a supercute designer outfit.

Here is another custom I did myself. I sold her and made some $. :)

daily doll: girlfriends

Dori and Lenore are my girlxgirl couple. I made some green eyes for Dori. I like them with her hair.

daily doll: oh snap

That snap was my willpower sometime around February 10. This is Anastasie, neé Fanatica, the most beautiful Pullip ever. There is something so unique about this girl that makes her one of the all time most popular and sought-after. I managed to get her for a decent price, but she's still worth more than a couple of her shelfmates. ^^;

Eli and Iris. Poor Eli has been flirting with all the girls for months trying to convince everyone he's straight. But he finally found the one who really clicked with him. Iris is Adsiltia. She is such a beautiful girl!

daily doll: twofer

Sometimes one picture isn't quite enough, especially when you're introducing someone new. And it's my blog so I make the rules. This is Milagros (Mila) - Pullip Zuora with new hair and eyes. She's a relatively recent addition. Haru has started stealing parts of her stock outfit. XD

random thoughts

First: Oh my. Glenn Beck really does talk like the Joker.

Second: I'm not sure how I feel about this upcoming book -- seems like people who have managed to get their PhD's and are ostensibly reaping the benefits thereof shouldn't be putting down the system that sustains them, but who knows. I haven't read it. All I know is, Ph.D. should always have an exclamation point -- maybe two. Ph!D! I love that.

Third: I miss Johnny Depp movies where Johnny Depp looks like Johnny Depp. Is all.

Fourth: Johnny Weir is SO CUTE and so classy. I just love him. Listen to them both being all "I don't even know what they were driving at," lol. Riiiiiight. But yeah, it's true, it makes no sense.

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Margot is getting ready for summer. :)

daily doll: Ichigo

This is Ichigo, Avonne's original Death Note character and Haru's younger half-brother from our RP game. :) I made him for Avonne's birthday. She was so surprised and happy! He is a full custom, one of a kind.

another piece of the puzzle

Another random thing I thought of regarding Asperger's is the fact that I hate the telephone and love the internet. Most people I know say they hate or have trouble with email and IM because they can't pick up on or convey tone in typed words. This, of course, is why emoticons were invented. But I've always preferred email because I had so much trouble with the phone. I really have mostly trained myself to understand facial expressions (compulsive sketching of faces, anyone??), but what I still have TONS of trouble with is vocal tone. This is why I always think people are yelling or angry when they're not, or, conversely why I always yell when I think I'm not. And this is why I hate the phone. I feel so disoriented talking to a disembodied voice, and I never really knew why before. By contrast, email is the great equalizer. NOBODY can understand tonal subtleties through most email, without the benefit of vocal inflection or facial expression. So they dislike it, and I like it. I like how there are certain signs clearly associated with how I want the other person to know I feel. When I see :) I am reassured, and I only wish there were something like that for the telephone. XD

Anyway, yeah. I think I get it!

pop culture break

Adam Lambert, whatever.

Yes, the pants are tight. But frankly I am more concerned with how DANGEROUS those greaves and shoulder pads look. I mean what if one of his love slaves stage dancers accidentally made forceful contact with one of those things? Not too mention his own face. Oh dear. Also, as from someone who loves gay things with spikes, I still think this outfit is ugly. Good idea, bad execution.

But what I'm interested in is the horrified reaction this gets compared to the passé response to the female equivalent. Ladies appear on stage with mile-high cleavage and no pants all the time. All the time. And yeah, it's kind of gross (unless you're Gaga, but I'll talk about her another time). But why do they do it? Because the industry is run by, and therefore for, straight men. Because women are seen as objects whether they dress this way or not. Wonder why everyone does it? Because they believe have to in order to get noticed. Whether it's true or not is debatable; the point is that regardless of talent the female stars are pressured to flaunt their assets. It's perfectly okay (read: expected) for Britney or Rihanna (or - flashback! -Janet Jackson or Madonna) to risk cameltoe or a nip slip (which is almost a rite of passage in the pop starlet's world), but Adam Lambert, well, that is way over the line. Makes sense to me. Poor Adam. He's just trying to be one of the girls! Leave Adam alone!!

Oh, but Adam, I'd still consider taking some style pointers from Johnny Weir. And by pointers I don't mean giant spikes on your extremities. Although...oh my, are we conjuring fun mental images? I think we are.

muñeca del día

Dori in the bakery at the January meet. This is her favorite outfit; it's so hard to get her to change. I love the pirate ship cake.

thinking about my atypical brain

I took three different short tests online, and they all said I probably have AS. To be honest about it I feel like I've known all along, and yet never known. Isn't that odd. Obvisouly there's no substitute for a real diagnosis, but I don't know if I care to pursue that. Maybe later.

I finally figured out how I want to use the nice journal Nancy gave me for Christmas. It's by far the nicest journal I've ever had, so I hesitated to make a mark in it. But I realized I want to write a book about the way I've seen the world and how life has been for me. From time to time in the past I'd toyed with the idea of an autobiography, but it seemed self-indulgent. To me, my life was fascinating and full of wonder, but really, to an outsider, it was just a normal ordinary life. Why would anyone want to read about an upper-middle-class white girl going to the best schools and suffering upper-middle-class angst over Roxy shirts and calories? However, now that I understand my condition, I realize that I actually haven't had an ordinary life. What many would call my fantasy life has been of equal meaning to me as the side of my life that is observable to outsiders. I used to think that putting stories about "I'm not a girl; I'm a bear" in an autobiography would be seen as an overly cute and clever self-depiction. But now I see that my experiences, with my phenomenal longterm memory, are not irrelevant. There are other people -- other girls, primarily, for the boys have been better studied -- who think as I do, and parents who don't know how to raise them. There is not enough out there to read that is anecdote-based, engaging, first-person rather than clinical. I think it would be useful for the general public to have something like this. Autobiography is the wrong word, though. It won't cover everything, and it won't be in order. It will focus on a series of specific themes pertaining to elements of AS and trace those through incidents from my experience. I want people to be able to relate to me, even if they never meet me, in a way I was able to relate to so few growing up. I want to help people, because there are so many people unaware of this condition, especially the less severe cases who have gone undiagnosed, who are suffering unnecessarily and might be comforted by the understanding.

I finally understand now why, despite having had all the advantages in the world, including the best of families, I still had such a difficult time growing up. And I feel vindicated, in a way. I know lots of people would caution me to be more private about such a thing, and I'm not sharing it with anyone except my boyfriend and my family, even if I am writing about it here. It's not the kidn of thing you broadcast. But it is something very important to me, because world makes so much more sense now. So I'm not going to be super secretive or anything either. I am not ashamed, because it's just how I am.

Now back to writing my paper. I had a minor eureka moment while looking at some Moche pots, so I think I'll be able to have fun with it until that particular angle is spent. Maybe I'll get eight pages or so out of it.

daily doll: winter pastimes

What do you do when your socks get too full of holes? Make them into hats for your dolls, of course. Lenore is modeling a kitty-ear hat that I have since sold. :)

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This is QiaoMei, model China China. I gave her new eyes (the originals were flat brown) and later a new body, though this picture predates the latter. She is sold out from 2004. I got her for a very "normal" price though, from a local collector at the January meetup. I just love her simple beauty and her cool hair. They don't make the new stock wigs as nice as the old ones.

your daily doll

Because I don't really have time or energy to make a huge post with all my favorite pics and new dolls going back to who knows when, I'm going to post one random doll photo a day. That way I won't be wasting as much of your time, either, since it takes two seconds to look at a picture. :)

Haru and his boyfriend Zero.